Sad news

I haven’t posted in awhile and I should have update ya’ll.  My sweet friend Amy passed away on June 24, 2014.  While she is no longer with us her spirt will remain.  She was a strong woman and a sweet friend.  I’m a better person for knowing her.  Please keep her family and friends in your thoughts and prayers!

Calling all prayer warriors!

Amy

Calling all prayer warriors online now would you please stop and take a moment and pray for my friend Amy?  I don’t have a lot of details, but God knows the need.  Amy is fighting stage 4 colon cancer.  She has been in the hospital since Tuesday and at this point they have called the family together.  Please hold her in prayer.  Her family and I trust God’s perfect will to be done. They just need our prayers right now!

Thank you all!

All about Amy

I thought long and hard about this title, I wasn’t sure what to say.  I wanted it to catch your eye, and make you want to read my post.  I don’t want you to read this post for me.  I know that’s weird, it’s my blog and it’s about my life and so on, but this post is different.  This post is about a friend of mine who is fighting for her life.  My friend Amy has stage 4 colon cancer.  She’s fighting hard and she’s been doing great!  At this point in time all of the tumors are in her liver now.  Let me go back and tell you how I met Amy. In the early 90′s I attended Lee College (now Lee University,  Go Flames!), and I met this great guy named Jeff.  I will admit I was totally smitten by him.  As time went on our friendship developed and he became my best friend.  We could talk for hours about almost nothing and we certainly bonded over movies!  It was such a great time in my life!  I left Lee, and Jeff and I kept in touch, then life happened and we lost touch.  A few years ago, thanks to Facebook we got back in touch!  That’s when I met Amy!  Jeff and Amy were dating and she and I clicked right away.  Fast forward a year and Jeff and Amy were married.  You see Jeff and Amy had known each other in grade school, and had been boyfriend and girlfriend then, and again, life happened, they went their separate ways and lived their lives.  Then they reconnected and fell in love!  Don’t ya just love a great romance? 2014-06-09 21.17.01  I love this picture from their wedding! I was working in Semi Pro Basketball in 2013 and I was in Nashville and we finally got to meet face to face!  It was at the lunch I knew we would be friends forever! It was shortly after that lunch that Amy was diagnosed with Stage 4 Colon Cancer. She was told she was going to die within a very short period of time…but guess what?  She didn’t!  God had bigger plans.  God still has bigger plans!  Amy has fought this cancer with grace and courage. don’t misunderstand she has been angry, sad, afraid and so many other emotions, but through it all she has shown grace and courage!  She is a fighter.  She and Jeff are fighting this ugly cancer and they have every intention of winning!   2014-06-09 21.15.12 Amy fighting cancer with chemo!  GO AMY!   So you may ask why I am writing this post.  Why am I blogging about Amy?  Well here is why.  Amy is facing more chemotherapy.  This time the chemo is going to cost $30,000.  Yes she has health insurance but we all know that’s not going to cover it all.  The fact is this, Amy needs our help financially.    Amy needs to concentrate on fighting cancer and so I established a Go Fund Me account to help them out! So here’s what I’m asking, check out Amy’s fundraising page.  If you can donate, if not will you please share her page.  Everyone needs help at some point in life.  It may be physical, it may be spiritual, and in this case it’s financial.  Please help Amy kick cancer’s butt!  This is Amy’s Go Fund Me page, even if you cannot donate, please share her page and please, above all, keep her and her family in your prayers!  We are all believing for a miracle for Amy!   http://www.gofundme.com/a49ubc Amy

Forever and a Day….

Yep that’s how long it’s been since I last blogged.  There are many reasons, the main reason is my computer is wacky.  The cursor jumps around and I spend more time correcting words than I do blogging!  The other reason is that life is crazy and I just haven’t made time for my blog.  But I’m making another attempt tonight.  I guess my biggest thing is I don’t know what direction I want to take this blog. I can’t decide if I want to focus on weight loss, Autism, or just life in general.  I lean to just life in general because those things are all part of my life

So here’s the update on the weight loss.  I’ve stalled.  I’ve fallen off the wagon and it has rolled over me!  But because I refuse to give up I’m starting back on Monday June 2nd!  I have a focused plan and I am going to stick with it.  I’ve changed how I think about it and have recommitted to getting healthy.  Shakeology will be a part of my plan as well as clean eating and exercise.  I am going to start swimming at the YMCA that is opening in our community June 1st!  I’m really excited about this!

As for Autism, it still rules our home.  Since school has been out Seth seems to have a lot to say.  He’s talking a lot and asking so many more questions.  He was just waiting for school to get out to let loose and have conversations!  We are looking for a new plan for his education because we aren’t happy with where he is.  I have a plan to work with all the kids this summer to help them get stronger and ready for their next grade!

As for life in general well it’s busy.  My husband has been in the hospital for some kidney issues.  My kids are all out of school for the summer and things are getting crazy at home!  I have lots of plans for summer and I’m hoping for it to be great!

It’s called a roller coaster for a reason

First you go up, the long steep hill that leads to the excitement of the ride.  It’s a slow ride to the top and then a brief pause before the ride really begins.  The lead car teeters at the top and then, almost without warning, it drops.  Down that hill fast and furious, then suddenly up another hill going fast and headed straight for that tight curve, and more hills, more valleys and a few more tight curves and then you come back to the station and the ride is over.

That is how I feel on my weight loss journey.  I feel like I keep going up and down, over and under, tight curves and fast and furious hills. The valleys are the worst because those are the times that I feel the worst about myself.  Those are the times that I hate how I’ve allowed myself to get to this point.  I start one diet after another and fail one diet after another.  I know that the successful weight loss journey is not about dieting, but about lifestyle change, and I know that’s the only way to be successful.  So how do you change your lifestyle?  How do you find the tools to do this?  Are there more tools than changing food habits and exercise?  I know those two are the main tools in becoming healthy, but there is more I can add right?  Well of course there is.  Some of you reading this have already figured where I’m going with this,and yes, I’m going there!  Weight loss surgery is another tool that can possibly be added to the journey to help make it successful.

I’ve been researching Lap Band for quite a while now.  I’ve read and chatted on forums and I have found, good, bad and really bad and really good results.  It all depends on the person.  I’ve read about losing weight and how it’s harder as you get older, and how sometimes a person’s body just fights weight loss with everything it has.  I don’t think my body is fighting, I think my body is confused.  I think my body doesn’t know which way to go.  I will be 280 lbs one day and then a few days later down to 278, I stay there a while and I go way down to 268, and then a week later back to 280.  It’s a numbers game.  I’ve found my blood sugars follow this same pattern, low, then high, then really low, and then back to a moderate range.  Again, it’s a numbers game.  I have to be losing weight because my 4x clothes are way to big.  I’m comfortably wearing 2x clothes, with a few 3x’s thrown in depending on the clothes.  So this is good, and this is progress, but what made me start to think about Lap Band again was that I need to make better progress.  My children need me to make better progress.  My husband needs me I to make better progress.  Lastly, I need me to make better progress. .  My body will only handle so much before I start facing serious complications from diabetes, before asthma hits hard again, and before my heart gives out.  I know this seems dramatic, but it is very dramatic fighting for your life.  That’s what I’m doing.  I’m fighting to save my life.

So on Monday January 29th I’m going to an appointment with a  surgeon.  I’m having a consultation regarding Lap Band.  It’s taken me awhile to get to this point, but here I am and ready to tackle it.  I had to overcome the thoughts that having weight loss surgery is taking the easy way out.  There’s nothing easy about weight loss.  There’s nothing easy about learning to be healthy after having a band placed around your stomach to help you control your eating.  There’s nothing easy about the exercise that will be required and the healthy choices that will be demanded.  I don’t know if I will have the surgery or not, but I do know this is a step I have to take in order for me to keep going on this journey.  Surgery or not, I’m determined to make this lifestyle change.

Running….what’s the deal with running?

I will admit from the moment I was born I was not meant to be an athlete.  Think more Scarlett O’Hara instead of any female athlete you can name!  I love to rest and recline and honestly just be lazy.  I plan days in my schedule to just be lazy!  I love it!  Unfortunately, being lazy doesn’t go along with getting healthy in 2014.  So I’ve looked into several different types of fitness.  I’ve looked at boxing, gym membership, boot camps, swimming, and running.  So what’s the deal with running?  How do you start? Can someone as overweight as I am really run?  Is running a good form of exercise?  So many questions.  I don’t know if I have it in me to run, but maybe it’s something I should try.  I don’t know what will come of this but I do know that I must add exercise to my daily life or I won’t complete my journey to a healthier life.

For food today, I had some great leftovers and Shakeology, and Chinese Veggies with Quinoa.  It was really good.  My kids inhaled it, well Mack and Seth did, Ms. Emma Claire had to have peanut butter and jelly.  She basically lives on that.

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So far the only food I’m missing is cheese and eggs.  I love them both, but it’s not going to kill me to be without them.

Any thoughts anyone wants to share on running please feel free.  This girl has got to get movin!