Time marches on

March 8, 2015 was my last post. Shame on me! I really wanted to be faithful to this blog and not let life get in the way. Yet here I am, November 2,2016, and a huge gap between posts. I want to say that nothing extraordinary happened during this time period, but life happened, and life is always extraordinary. My kids are growing up too fast, and becoming more independent, my dogs are spoiled rotten, and becoming more dependent! Autism reigns in our home just as it did before. It’s a crazy life! It’s my life and I love it! I’m not sure what the future holds for this little blog of mine, but I am going to keep the site and see what develops, with me you never really know! And if you ask exactly what I’ve been up I may just tell you!!! Go ahead….Ask me!!

Where have you been?

I’ve received a couple of emails asking where I have been, and all I can say is that I’ve been here.  I keep trying to find a way to keep this blog going and it seems I always end up pushing it aside.  I started writing this blog to have an outlet.  My own place to “talk” about things.  I usually have a lot to say, not lately.  I need to do some more reading and researching and see if I’m going to keep this blog going.  My life seems so crazy most of the time, that blogging gets sat in a corner and left there.  Don’t give up on me just yet.  I still have a few ideas!

I knew it would happen

I knew it would happen.  I knew the day would come.  I thought I was ready for it.  I wasn’t.

What I wasn’t ready for was the day when Seth felt sad because he has Autism.  It happened yesterday.  Well, it’s been happening over the last few days and yesterday I was finally able to get him to tell me what was wrong.  He was upset because kids at school stared at him and thought he was weird.

It started on Friday, he came home from school and things were pretty normal.  He had Valentine’s Day candy, and he was hyped on sugar!  Saturday was an okay day.  Sunday he was acting a little “off” at church and by Sunday night he hardly wanted anything to eat.  For Seth that is unusual!  Normally he eats anything put in front of him.  He’s one of those kids that likes almost everything.  But Sunday night he didn’t want to eat.  He didn’t want to eat much on Monday, and by Monday afternoon all he wanted to do was be held.  He refused Cream of Mushroom soup and Strawberry Shortcake.  All because he was sad because he’s different.

He sat in my lap for a while at the restaurant and told me that the kids stare at him because he’s weird.  As I fought back tears, not very successfully, I told him how awesome he is, how God loves him so very much and how special he is.  I reminded him that not everyone has Autism, and not everyone understands.  I reassured him that we all loved him very much and we think he’s fantastic.  He went over to my husband and sat in his lap for the rest of the meal.

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After we left Seth went home with Grandpa and Trina, and I went over later to get him.  He made me promise that if something was wrong at school that he could tell his teacher and she could call us.  Of course I promised him.  It’s important for him to be in school, but it’s more important that he knows no matter what his Mom and Dad are there for him.  He has a great teacher, and they love him at school so I knew sending him to school was the best thing to do this morning.  It was hard.  He tried to tell me he “thought he had a sore throat” but after asking him if he was lying, he said he was.  He asked several times to stay home.  Consistently I told him he had to go to school.  He made me promise again that if he couldn’t make it he could have his teacher call.

It’s 12 noon, and we haven’t heard from the school!  That’s a good sign.  I always knew this day would come.  I knew there would be a time when Autism wouldn’t be his Superpower, but his “thing” that made him different from everyone else.  I knew it would happen.  I really thought I was prepared.  I wasn’t.  I cried last night.  I cried for my son, I cried because I can’t make it better for him.  I can only be there to help him through it!

I don’t really think the kids are being mean.  I don’t think Seth is being bullied.  I think that kids don’t understand why Seth does the things he does.  They don’t know what Autism means.  They don’t know that staring makes Seth uncomfortable.  I really don’t think the kids are being mean.  They are just being kids.  Which is exactly what I want for Seth.  A chance in a regular school in a regular classroom, to be a regular kid, who just happens to have Autism.   I want people to know he’s a blessing, he’s a gift from God.  He is smart, and funny.  He loves to play Legos, and he’s really good at building things without instructions.  I want people to know that he’s going to be a great adult!  I want people to know that I am blessed beyond words to be his Mom!

Will it ever end?

I had this great plan to blog and keep you all entertained for the whole year.  I was going to eat and blog, and show you the sites of Arizona and Blog…and so many other plans.  But life happened.  I still have a quest to do these things, I just need to re group a little.  I’ve been sick for a few days now so my 50 states adventure has been delayed.  I am hoping to get back on track next week and bring you the fare from the state of Alaska, as featured in Phoenix Magazine.

I have a new laptop so my accessibility is easier as well.  I can’t wait to get back into the swing of things and catch ya’ll up!

What a difference three years can make

So thanks to the app Timehop I have a visual record to remind me that I’ve been in Arizona three years.  It certainly has been a great three years!  There’s not question about it, I love Arizona!  I miss my family and friends in Indiana, but I really do love it here!

Then:

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Now:

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There have been a lot of changes in our family.  The kids have grown up, we added a fur baby, and Joe and I are losing more pounds every week.  Mack wasn’t happy at all about this picture, Emma was screaming, and Seth was joining her.  Yeah, that’s pretty typical around here!